"Make no judgments where you have no compassion."
— Anne McCaffrey
Itchin on a Photograph
Grouplove - Itchin on a Photograph
Workout song of the day for me.
Everything about this song just makes me not want to sit still.
(The fact that i saw them live and it was super incredible could help, though. YMMV)
— Anne McCaffrey
2nd day of Ecology and Intro To Philosophy. Ecology seems like it’s going to be boring, but i think (hope) that i will genuinely enjoy Philosophy. I wanted to work out this morning but i was super tired when i woke up the first time and being tired in class is not worth it when i can work out later just as easily.
have a good day people.
Whoops. I feel like shit (literally, not mentally. In my head it’s not the end of the world. My stomach feels otherwise ughhhh)
But i had an awesome workout at the gym this morning…
So that’s good…right guys? right….? :P
Warning: Pointless rant ahead.
I wanted to be skinny. I weighed 200 pounds, and it was a fat 200 pounds. Very little muscle going on. If i had to guess I’d say at least 30% body fat, likely more.
I just wanted to be thin. I’ve never really cared about muscle. I just wanted to wear a size 30 pants and small/medium shirts. It was pure aesthetics.
So i started running. I had literally no idea how to do this. I knew i wanted it, but i didn’t know how to get there. I didn’t have the motivation or inspiration, either. But i found an ask.metafilter.com post related to weight loss. Someone was looking for inspiration. One of the members over there had suggested the OP check out bendoeslife.tumblr.com, a blog about a guy losing weight via running. I went to Bens page, and started reading from the beginning. I was hooked. I read his blog from the first post to his most recent one at the time (this was probably about 8 months ago…I’m not sure where he was at fitness related at the time, but he was still focused on the fitness aspect and not on the do life tour stuff). This was the spark i needed. I started running. And i began eating less junk. I’m a picky eater, so i couldn’t immediately just start eating the foods i needed to be…So i just ate less of the shit that i was shoving in my mouth. And i ran 2 miles a night. Sometimes more, sometimes a little less. But i almost always ran. Sometimes with my girlfriend, my best friend, or alone. And i got smaller. And happier.
I went from 200 pounds to ~170. 30 pounds…Alright, awesome. But i still had a lot of fat. Cardio is great and all, but it has the terrible effect of making you a skinny fat.
For the last month i’ve been experimenting with the way i eat. I’ve cut carbs out significantly, trying out a ketogenic diet for a little while. Over the past month or two that i’ve been taking a break from non stop exercise and really working on understanding the way i should be eating i’ve managed to…well, understand the way i should be eating. I’m fairly confident that I know the way i should eat for my body now.
But the funny thing is, now, it’s not only about aesthetics. It’s not enough to be skinny for me any more. I want to be fit. I want to be athletic. I want to live life. I want have muscles, and hike beautiful mountains, and bike trails, and run marathons. I’m not longer complacent in just being lethargic. I love sitting on the computer, but i’ve found a love for something else (other than my girlfriend - love you honey ;] ). I love being active. Expect more updates from me starting soon. My schedule will be changing, and my free time will be shifting around. I’m going to be back in the swing of things. I’m real excited :) haha.
I’m going to start regularly going to the gym to life heavy objects starting this week, and i’m actually antsy about it. I can’t wait to do it. I’m going to go strict about my eating that same day (I’ve decided to go with a half paleo/half IIFYMN approach at least in the beginning while i’m trying to figure out what my body will best respond to).
I’m just excited, is all. It’s a new feeling for me.